i wish i could never be in front of you.

something tells me that sometimes i should have shut my trap.
sometimes it feels like some things are better left unsaid.
but on other things,
they are better off opening your mouths for.
i, for one, is someone who have troubles keeping it shut.

i dont wanna blurt anything unneccesary out here cause it would be unfair if somehow,
in a way or another,
the whole shit still want to be remained as a secret.
quite disgusting if you ask me.

i shall not go into details.

and i know i am supposed to have an entry dedicate to a particular big headed person but i guess after much deep considerations and thoughts,
maybe it's better for me to not even think or breathe a word about it.

but can i just say one thing.
a few things maybe.

to you.
i'm sure you know who you are
whether or not you read this particular webpage/entry.

like i've mentioned before.
i'm not angry.
i'm not disappointed.
disgusted is the word to use.

'so what do you want me to do?'
that was what you asked.

i have deleted and re-drafted a couple of times but i finally have decided against sending before i say the wrong things
and weirdly,
while typing that five-page long text,
my whole body was shaking.
shaking with disgust.
seriously,
not so weird if you ask me.

and then someone told me you were sad about what i told you about me being disgusted with you.
i replied with 'i dont fucking give a fucking damn about how (thing) feel about me!'
then it hit me back with an instant revelation.

'why would you fucking give a fucking damn about how i think of you anyways?'

all you need to now is
i am disgusted
just dont do anything.
i promise you this.
things WILL NOT go back to yesterday EVER.

like the title of this entry suggest,
and i thank mêlée for such an awesome song with such amazing lyrics.

remember.
d i s g u s t
is spelt with your name.

nice to know. nice to know that you're around.

as promised, let's talk rivermaya.
one of our favourite regional exports were back and they rocked out at dxo@esplanade.
of course,joyce and i had to be there to show some love.
it was our first time experience jayson,
their new lead vocalist perform anyways.

they were really good.
jayson is not only good on vocals.
he was also pleasing to our eyes.
heh heh

though in the middle on the concert,
he spoke a little more than just a few lines of tagalog which made me wonder if he's forgotten he's landed on singapore ground.
yes, there were quite a fair bit of filipino supporters present but still..

anyways,
in my opinion,
jayson is really really..
(fill.in.the.blank.here.)

to be very fair,
here are some sexy photos of jayson.
and.
me.

:D

this is take one.

take two. with a smile.
take three. he decided to be all cute..

happy weekend all you sexy bitches and full-time artists.

you spin my head right round right round.

rivermaya's gig on friday night was awesome but i will go more into that in the next entry.
but for now, let's dedicate this entry to fuel.
some event that was held at the f1 pit building and yes,
samantha ronson was spinning at the vip section.

of course manfred, joyce and i were in the vip section.
ha ha
and extremely big hugs to joyce's friend rling for the passes!

so fuel is boring and time wasting as hell for the first two hours we were there and so manfred and i decided to head to somewhere where we can chillax a little more and dance to more of our favourite tunes.
and so we headed for play while the ladies went to butter factory.

so when we returned,
sam ron have started spinning and excuse me bitches,
she is the bomb.
she was so good you cannot compare her with any other deejays,
that i have been to their set before, that is.
she is that good.
i especially how she mix a r&b song with a pop song and still have them all banging with her beats.

damn i wish she would just stay here and keep spinning.
seriously,
they should have made her stay and asked her to spin at the coming thur's two queens party at play or at superstar tonight.

sam ron made me didnt wanna stop and in fact,
joyce and i in particular just went ahead and made our legs suffer
but we didnt regret.
the music was hot.

cant you believe it?
she made me believe that flo rida's right round is a good song?
ha ha

sam, please come back for another set
i promise i will be there to support
even without lindsay around i know i will enjoy myself.

hee

i never meant to start a war.

so it's the post assessment period now.
and damn why i do i have that many things in school?
i have trouble packing them and bringing them all home.
heh heh

in any case,
it's hello free dom and hello partying for now.
i'm excited.

rivermaya plays at dxo @ esplanade tonight and tomorrow night.
and i'm excited to watch jayson, the new vocalist do his thang.
of course the other three mad crazy studs!
ha ha

it's gonna be a good day.
the start to the brilliant weekend.

did i say samantha 'lindsay lohan' ronson is popping by too?
yea, tomorrow night she'll be spinning at fuel.

i'm actually very looking forward to meet the pussycat dolls kimberly and ashley of the dolls.
june seemed kinda empty for people to tour around our region.
hello universal music?
alesha dixon, PLEASE?
kuala lumpur got the saturdays anyways!

a r g h !

and it'll be sawadee-krap soon as well!!
things are looking good.
:D

okayy,
stomach's growling and pressing me for food.

www.twitter.com/danielloo that's me.
tweet me k? i feel lonely.

i will do it all over again.

"Our Medical Officer is still reviewing your laboratory results. There was a technical glitch in the system, hence a slight delay in reviewing of the laboratory results. Rest assured that we are following up on your case and will inform you of your PES grading via a Summary of Medical Status."

and that was what i got from cmpb when i emailed them asking what happened to my pes status and my enlistment details.
seriously, not that i am very excited about entering my two year chalet but it's been close to two months and apparently, every male around me in school has gotten their enlistment dates.
awwwww...

but in any case,
im glad that things with the specialist are fine.
i've been 'discharged' as according to my form/card thingy.
it says i am perfectly well and do not need further check ups and appointments anymore..
heh
sounds good cause it means it's almost time to party.
sounds bad cause i wouldnt be 'down-pes' for national service.
ahh damn!

so assessment is in under five days and at the speed im going,
it's like assessment is in two months.
it's not that im slow.
just that everyone else is kinda zoom zoom fast lighting speed.
but we'll do fine.
printmakers are always the first in line to get axed by the lecturers and assessors.
bloody hell.

so,
samantha ronson is headed for our shores.. NEXT SATURDAY!!
wheeeeee!!
apparently,
amalina, manfred and myself are VERY keen on going to her set when she spins.
i wonder if a particular lohan lady will be in the crowd..
i do hope so..
talk about one stone killing two birds huh.

i still am trying to sort out plans for holidays.
langkawi prices just shot up sky high and im pissed.
bangkok with jamie seem promising now.

next step,
i need to get a j o b .

alright, time to stop typing and partey within school compound.
heh

just a few more days..

let's get excited, i'm so excited!

i always get very excited when either tiger airways, jetstar or airasia send me email promotions.
especially now that things are wrapping up with school.
putting aside the physical health threat that i'm in,
i still am very looking forward to be flying off to somewhere else in the very near future.
let's say..
langkawi?
anyone who've been there?
heh

in case you didnt know or havent heard,
temperature checks at nafa is hideous.
security guards doubled up as 'nurses' is disgusting.
one.
they are rude.
two.
they touch you for no good reasons like as if i'm deaf and i cant hear them say 'student pass!!!!!'
that made me pretty annoyed with those idiots.
and that pratically put me off to even go down to the canteen for lunch yesterday.
did i mention that they even locked up all the doors in the school?
like, h e l l o ?
temperature checks?
security guards?
get real nurses, please!
hot ones would be much appreciated, thank you very much.
i just wanna bring lots of food to school and never have to leave the printmaking workshop to avoid any unnecessary contacts with those idiots, yes, the security guards.
and ohh!
i seriously think their thermometer or whatever you call that medical instrument which you use it to point on someone's forehead and you'll know the person's temperature, is faulty.
they allowed people who were running fever in.
like 38.8°C??

seriously,
thank god for the remaining under two weeks!
otherwise i'm so fucked!

heh

bottomline is,
i really dont like the security guards.
or rather, i just dont have luck with security guards!

there's an endless storyy.

the time was 1442hrs. when sis and i walked into the main entrace of alexandra hospital,
took our temperature and filled up a form.
then we stood in front of the emergency department.
took temperature, filled up a form again.

having to wait for over an hour before being seen by one of the doctors,
i was told i have 'pretty bad chest infection'.
it was so bad the doctor actually fixed an appointment date for me to be seen by a specialists in under 2 weeks.
am i scared?
d u h !

never would i have dreamt that this day would come falling upon me.
a merely twenty year old.
oh wells,
viruses attack irregardless of your age, race, sex and looks.

anyways,
the tear down of the exhibition was indeed infuriating.
i dont blame anyone.
correction,
i blame irresponsibility and i blame the fucking heck-care attitude.
and i told jasmine that the one big reason why i didnt get well so easily could be because i have been talking about people behind their backs.
but thing is,
if there were to appear in front of me,
i would say the same thing to their faces too.
so.. ilogical eh..
oh well..

anyways,
in case you've been following greek,
yes the america television series..
it's starting to get hot.
and heroes is even hotter.
gossip girl...
they made me expect too much and when they dont meet my expectations,
i feel cheated.
heh

finallyy..

i'm mad that the saturdays is going to kuala lumpur!
:(