gone in anotherr.

in this life,
things come and they go.
plans change not to what we expect it to be.
but it not neccessary is a bad thing.
sometimes we wish things would go back to what they were like when two unknown individual first met.
sometimes we just like the way how special we feel at a particular moment.
as mentioned, it's a moment.
sometimes they last, but usually, they dont.
they happened, and time just past and the moment is gone.
but it's a blessing that it actually happened.
at least you know things like that dont only happen in movies and tele shows.

i respect you, your replies and your answers.
it's always fun to be around you.
you always say and do things which are hilarious that no matter how bad my day was,
just standing next to you puts a wide smile on my face.
i thank you for all the wonderful things we're shared.
the nice food, nice late nights and those wonderful conversation.
as they say.. 'good things come to an endd.'
it did.

but it ended on a pretty light note.
i stunned myself at how fine i am after receiving the replyy.

i guess it's just the amazing part about dating and not hurrying ourselves in a relationship.
we got to know each other then slowly undiscover little by little.
but unfortunately, as time passes,
it's just a one way street.

i'm glad we met.
at least our paths crossed, but unfortunately not in that way i wished it would.
but i am thankful for everything that had happened this past week.
be it positive or negative.
thinking back, it still puts a smile on my face.
though i've never thought i would be shedding tears, i did.

i thank god for putting you in my life and let me realise whatever i want in my better half is alive and that it is possible.

i miss ace, your chiwhawha.

maybe i should stop thinking of all these things now and start letting myself go.
let things happen.
dont hope nor wish.
just take life easy.
i might bump into 'the one' at god-knows-where and god-knows-how.

maybe i should just resign myself to fatee..
and life would be much simpler then.

it's just lifee.

so today was the year three grad show.
went with ben and the usual bunch.
the show was awesome.
i really like gaucelm's work.
very realistic and i like the choice of colours.
ben is impressed with the chinese ink paintings by harry.
haha.
in general, it was really awesome.
what was even better was the fact that i got to see everyone,
well most of them at least,
all over again and catching up.

let's do this all over again someday okayy?

anyways,
today is a very important day at work.
just when ryan and i realised that we arent getting our own nice cubicles,
we fought for it and we got what we wanted.
i even got myself a computer i can call my own.
my own drawers,
dustbin, blah blah blahh.
haha.

so happy i tell you.
i feel sorry for shirley and marilyn.
cubicles have been taken away from them.
poor girls.

anyhoo,
today's been a great day.

i like the way you open up and let those true feelings flow out.
you know what i mean right?
yes, that's that kinda feelingg.

singfest and mtv asia awards are clashing.
come on, mraz..
tell me which one you're gonna be at and i'll be there.
then again..
i'm more interested to see many many acts in one show.
haha.

oh well,
whatever.

thursday tomorrow!!

it's been a pretty smooth weekk, hasnt it?

bliss.

for the first time in my almost twenty years of seeing the light of the world,
i spent almost 42 non consecutive hours with a person.
this is blissful, i think.

okayy,
i think i'm a happy ass now.

i should go to bed.

swallon right eye is not healing..
was it ace or was it dust or was it...?
oh well.

okayy bye guys.
hope you had an awesome weekend.
i certainly did.

day threeee

what can i say?
day three at workk.
haha.
i actually like my job.
though it tend to be pretty boring.

i like my colleagues.
they are ace.
lunch khakis are also greatt.

andd anddd..
my work email will work from tomorrow!
CANT WAIT!
haha!!

farouk..
i cant thank you enough mann.
haha.

COME BACK SOOOOON!!

okayy,
need to sleep.
if not tomorrow i cant get up on time..
haha.

have a great week ahead y'all!!
weekend's around the corner!!
heh heh heh.

friday first.

i am officially not jobless.
first day at work was awesome.
i think i have a very patient, funny and lovely supervisor.
co-workers and co-temps are funny and very friendly.
i think farouk rocks.
haha.

didnt have to do much at work except having to face the computer for a good 8 hours everyday and key in data from various forms.
boring as hell but it's a job to keep me going and keep those cash flowing in.
heh heh heh.

yesterday also marks the first day in almost three weeks to play since the super embarrassing day, eve of labour day.
haha.
well, only stayed for thirty minutes.
the last song i remembered them playing was.. duffy's mercy?
and that was when the clock just past midnight.
it was okayy.
was more interesting to do something elseee.
haha.

then headed for supper with yvonne and jiayu.
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!!
since last august, i havent seen that fishy head.
haha.
it was soooooo goood to see the both of them out in action.
i cant wait to finally meet all of you again.
i promise i will attendd.
haha.

it's a good saturday.
woke up with a wide smile on my face.
cleaned up my room.
washed the bedsheets.
i know i'm a good boy, thank you.

alsoo, i recently started watching gossip girls.
(yes, i'm a little slow but i dont like to wait each week for a new episodee.. you know. so i decided to watch them once at a goo.)
i am sooooooo madly in love with dan hunphrey played by penn badgley.
(did i get it right?)
he is super hot.
chace's a little overrated, i think.
he looks so gay especially when he had his basketball outfit on.
boooooo.
people who havent caught it,
go for it.
it's good.
bitchy, saucy and extraordinary.
gay boys, straight ladies, you'll love the boys.
straight boys, gay ladies, you'll love the girls.
trust me.
haha.

okayy..
as i've mentioned..
it's been a great saturdayy.
weather's looking fine.
and here i am munching my timtams while typingg..

oh ya!
super big love to whitney for winning the tenth cycle of america's next top model.
you're gorgeous.
you deserve it.
fatimah should go and fuck herself.
she's disgustingly irritating.
shame on her.
i dont wish bad things but i dont wish her well..
thinking of her pisses me off, badly.
argh!

okayy,
back to episode five of gossip girl..

casual significancee.

'there's something you should know,
the angels they surround my heart
telling me to let you goo...'

'...i should just walk away
over and over I keep on coming back for moreee...'

- madonna 'devil wouldnt recognise you'


in case you're wondering,casual significance refers to some song lyrics which i can relate to at a particular moment.

heh heh..

this is eileen and brian on their BIG day last saturdayy.
i was sooo honoured to be their emcee for the very special evening with lynn.

anyways,
sorry for the temporary disapparence.
i've been working at sis' these past three days and it's been pretty awesome.
love it especially yesterdayy.
was supposed to be having an event but as it was an outdoor event and it was raining chimpanzees, monkeys and donkeys..
it's been postponedd.
glad i was roped in to work for that two hours..
cause i didnt do much except loading and unloading stuff.
haha.

this is what they called..
easy moneyy.

anyhoo..
i found a job.
YES!!
I FOUND A JOB!!
super huge thanks to farouk for introducing me to his workplace.
and now i'm apparently replacing him while he'll be having a fandamntastic time in down under.
i wish i could save enough and fly down to perth at the end of the year alsoo..
heh heh.
the bestest thing is that i found a job to at least will kill a month awayy.

i still need a holidayy.

okayy..
time for my afternoon nap..
haha.

on a super random note..
i am back to being very hooked on mariahh.
ahhhhhhhhh!!

MARIE DIGBY

this is marie (maa-re-eh) digby.

celebrated the last day of school at velvet underground for a showcase by this woman.
she has good voice.
sorry but i think she is a boring performer and does not attract her audience to her.
i actually got bored after her third song.
or rather..
i didnt enjoy myself.
she is just boring.

i think most of us wouldnt know who she is?

well, she got discovered after doing an acoustic cover of rihanna's umbrella.
and apparently, she got a record deal.

and as according to manfred,
she's been signed to hollywood records since 2005.
just that they were a little too cheapskate to promote her with those official promos.
so.. youtube, being it free, was their promo.

oh well..

i wish jesse mccartney would come visit me soooon.
such an adorable boy.
i can sooo see myself meeting him and having at least 3 million photos with him..

okayy,
back to reality.

we'll just wait and see..

staying in on this beautiful sunday is bliss..

and oh!!
it's mother's day!!

this feeling is.. perfect!!

i dont know how to describe this feeling i am feeling right now.
it's like i have accomplished something and i wanna scream out loud to the world and to one specific person with the words.. 'BEAT THAT!!'

then again..
i actually did accomplish something..
thats something is..
I AM DONE WITH THE BLOODY BULLSHIT LOAD OF FLASH ANIMATION!!!
WHOOOOOOOOOO!!!

goshh..
after tomorrow.. it's gonna be different.
tomorrow marks the end of year two.
seriously..
time flies, in a good and bad way.

on the bright side,
i've completed year two good enough to move upwards to year three.
darker side..
as time goes by,
you see people's true colours,
their more irritating side.
details will be left for your imagination..

it's been a good day though there were some unneccesary nonsense..
hah!

whatever it is..
time to celebrate!!

let's seeeeee...

tomorrow we'll have nonsense bullshit class till noon.
then dasimah, jasmine, serena and i will head for johor bahru!
then in the evening,
we'll wrap things up at velvet underground with a marie digby's showcase..

speaking of which,
big big hugs to kevin and lih fen from emi for those passes to watch marie!!

saturday's eileen and brian's BIG day!
pretty touched to be a part of the celebration!
haha!

okayy.. as for now..
i wanna go have my evening shower then it's time for a good night's sleep..
or should i watch the hottie and the nottie first?
no.. ugly betty is more tempting..

oh well..

woot woot.

ooooooorighttttttt!!
passed assessment.
majority of the modules for assessment is done.
D O N E !
we wouldnt know the exact grades till they mail us the result slips.
then again...
they're gonna take forever cause nafa is screwed.

left with one bullshit module - digital media.
i looooove the debrief today when we suggested our dislikes and disagreements about the damn module with the head and the asst head.
all thanks to wendy for bringing it up.
we believed it's been deep inside her for the past year.
haha.

whatever it is.
no more painting, no more drawings for a while.
no wait.. no drawing for a while.
painting will resume when i feel like it at home for the uob thingy which we are encouraged to take part in.
i wonder which area i should explore in.
hmmmmm....

anyhoooo,
i seriously cant wait for friday till everything's is officially over.
i dont like the suspense.
when you know it's coming but it's not here.
then again.. it means i gotta start working on the damn flash soon before i get my ass screwed.

anddd..
i was told last week we need to include this reflective essay inside out submission envelope.
which i thought was very challenging of her to ask us to write it down.
personally,
i dont like the module.
because of the module itself and the lecturer.
i forsee myself typing a whole essay of not less than 2 pages.

i think i need to go job hunting all over again.
bloody agency cheated my feeling.
if it wasnt for my email,
they wouldnt have intended to let me know if i'm in or i'm out.
how responsible right?
and they replied me saying that their client wants a female worker.
i mean.. they assumed female workers are more precise, more hardoworking and more intelligent and more capable of doing things right?
how stereotypical can they get.
arghh.

i will be persistent and will find a job soon, i hope.

if anyone has any lobangs or job openings, please dont hesistate to let me know okayy?
heh heh heh.

okayy,
it's been a couple of super long days.
time for an early night..

should i flash tonight or rush everything tomorrow?
hmmmmm.....

eleanor. enanor. elecow.

yes yes!
today marks the birth of eleanor twenty years ago.
haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELEANOR!!

we had such a blast yesterday at her birthday party at..
MCDONALDS!!
we were playing games like we were pre-school kids.
party hats, checked.
nursery rhymes, checked.
happy meals, checked.
party people, checked.
and the fact that we were sitting on those really cute tiny wee chairs completed the whole package.

but seriously, it was really really fun.

there are more photos but are with gracia..
so.. we gotta wait a little longer since those works are due wednesday!

okayy, i know it's 5 minutes to 10 but i'm still home.
i am just 'that' lazy to get my ass off and set off for school.
boooooo..

school's officially out.
assessment's in.
i can smell the holidayss..
it's sooo soooo reachable.

but wait,
flash and painting..

ARGH!!

have a good week y'all!!

casual significancee.

'and even though I really love youu,
i'm gonna smile cause I deserve to,
it'll all get better in timee..'

- leona lewis 'better in time'


in case you're wondering,casual significance refers to some song lyrics which i can relate to at a particular moment.

drink. drank. drunk.

play-ed last night with farouk, only.
i was drunk.
okayy, not just drunk.
really really drunk in fact.

let's see what i had.
cheapthrilled my own vodka from home with orange juice.
and after that,
bumped into shela at tantric.
her friend offered me a sip but it was more than a sip of whatever he was drinking,
which was actually VERY strong.
then back to play,
saw lester's cap guy, as i was already high,
i talked to him.
finally, we know his name.
daryl, that is.
he bought farouk and i drinks.
i would think it was only a glass..
but he came back from the bar counter with a jug of god-knows-what with vodka.
that was pretty strong also.
then bumped into daniel,
he made us drink again.
his drinks were strong as well.
now that's bad.
then off we go to pay 7-11 a little visit which we ended up with a bourbon cola for me and whisky with green tea for farouk.

then i got very very high.
very very drunk also.
vomited in the loo.
i felt my stomach contracted over five times.
cant believe it.

then i remember sitting down.
just sitting down.
the next thing i know.
i was outside of play.
as according to farouk,
the bouncers carried me out.
then drama here, drama there.
i vomited again.
then..
farouk called my sis.
yes.. i know rightt.
haha.

she came over with g and fetched me back.
helped me to bed and then when i woke up a couple of hours later,
i realised my jeans, socks and everything was still on.

oh my god, right?
yes, that was how drunk i got.

i think they'd probably have this 'no entry for daniel loo' sign outside play now.
like the mas selamat wanted signs all over singapore.
haha.

in any case,
thank god for farouk.
he's the best i tell you.

you guys should go club with him and lester.
they're the collest dudes.
love them both.

okayy,
back to reality..
right now, this is the 'get-your-fucking-head-back-to-life-and-sober-up-PLEASE' phase.

in another hours,
i'll be in school, painting.
it's public holiday, i know.
butttttt...

assessment on wednesday.

so.. no holiday.

at least i had fun.

having fun is defined as 'going out having a good night out and having not much clue what happened the night before..'

HAHA!!

happy labour day, by the way.
okay, byee.