fantasy realised is a nightmare.

a fortnight close to five months and i am still not over it.
i wanna be where i was and just stay there.
i just want to go back to yesterdays before all those shit accusations occur.
those were good times.
and good things always come to an end.

like what zhou 'sotong ball' rui told me.
we humans always yearn for something we cannot have.
after much deep thoughts about it,
i kinda agree to it.

i think i've been a bloody idiot who's just been hoping for things to turn out differently.
i have all the reasons in the world to hate it and leave it.
somehow,
i am not doing that.
in fact,
i want the opposite.

i think i'm just dumb.

these days i've been feeling kinda down with all random thoughts and hopes.
people come and people go.
no one ever seem to just stay on with me and fight the fight with me.
i am not wishing for another someone in my life.
but i am just hoping for something sweet would happen.
it not necessarily have to be something romantic.

sighh.

i think i'm just dumb.

ahhh shucks!

so school's been really, really crazy since i got back to singapore on mondayy and everything's been zooming past me and i'm scaredd.
haha
cause everything's going too past and i still have loads to do and tomorrow,
or in under nine hours,
i'm having my first major printmaking critique session and we're all pretty much screwed with the exception of one individual.

okayy,
i am going to have an early night so i can wake up feeling fresh and be sure of what to say and what not to.
so....

have a good weekend.

starting this week,
many people are popping by singapore and i'm excited.
haha..

kuala lumpur, yall!

this is my hundredth post and it's sweet that i am blogging using brenton's lappy right here in kuala lumpur.

so far it's been really really fun and everything seemed so new to me.
haha
the five hour coach ride was awesome.
and damn i almost missed my bus cause of some damn bitch who told me to wait when the bus was actually leaving.
and the spaghetti on board sucked..
but all in all,
it was an awesome ride from singapore to kuala lumpur.

this hotel flamingo is so beautiful.
what a view from the room and nice room..
:D

photos will be up when i get back to singapore..

and ohh,
due to some unforeseen circumstances,
i'm only gonna leave kuala lumpur on monday instead of tomorrow..
well,
the coach got no more seats for me tomorrow.
so i'm gonna be up by 5 to catch my 6am coach back home and back to school for more madness..

god, i'm so in love with kl.
everything's so cheap
like a half litre of vodka cost under rm14.
when one glass of vodka in singapore cost almost 11 fuckin' bucks!

which explains why right now i'm kinda high and drunkk.
HAHA!!

alrighty yall,
hope you're having a good weekend cause i am having a blast right here, right noww.

i hope rischka is missing me as she told me so.
haha.

party on me yall!!

p-itch. k-itch.

so with the random addition,
i'm out.

sometimes i run, sometimes i hide.

this is the start of the second tutorial week,
which so far have been too much more fun than i expected.
heh heh
in good and bad ways, really.

my second image for intaglio will be printed by the end of this week!

so, the iloveyou messge i have on my msn is kinda getting some of your attention,
in the other, the wrong, way.
well, i told myself iloveyou just before i fell asleep last saturday night in front of the mirror.
just for the sake of randomness.
honestlyy..
and to those who thought it was youknowwho,
no it's not.
you might not believe me anyways.
but no,
i am still fighting with myself to get over all these unnecessary shit.

i'm gonna go into a different direction..i
'm gonna hate him.

anywayss,
as promised, pictures, pictures
and more pictures..

two weeks ago was ms lavigne's concert,
as you would already have known..
here are some snaps..
not of the concert but of the pictures i took with the people who made the tour possible.

first up,
jimmy mcgorman.
avril's rhythm guitarist.
the one who replaced my evan taubenfeld!

steve fekete.
the one who replaced devin bronson..
the lead guitarist which left manfred going 'gaga' over him for the entire time they were here.
and manfred managed one picture with him EACH DAY!
yes,
talk about obsession.
HAHA!!

here are the four dancers avril brought on tour with her.
i dont know their names but i remember one of them is called bj and other is called sofie?

and last week we gave miguel a surprised birthday party which "meant a lot to him"..
so it made us all very happyy.
HAHA!
and i think he should be also with the three-days supply of coke zero!
:P

so, this is the official year three printmaking students (minus zhou rui).
together with the technical officer, heww khim.
who is just like anyone of us.
she is damn damn funny.
and ohh,
spot rischka's and miguel's similarities!
heh heh

(L-R) daniel, rischka, chien ling, miguel, emilyn, hwee khim, jasmine, dasimah

and dont ask me why that jasmine was in 'yellow'
while the rest of us are in black.
it was pretty unplanned when everyone walked in wearing black with jasmine being the only one wearing yellow.
so, she decided to use her black and white apron to be the back-up plan which was completely hideous!
HAHAHA!!

and here are more of jasmine being the odd-one-out and being super bright among us.
haha..


okayy, enough of aunty jas.
and so after jasmine taking centre stage..
rischka and i did some spontaneous "modelling".
which were snapped by dasimah.
clearly, she rocks and rikky and i both agreed that these shots are friendster-friendly.
HAHA!

that's all yall.
all of a sudden it became a little longer than an essay but it's insanely long.
HAHA!

anyways, have a great week ahead!
i'm heading up to kuala lumpur for the second time in my life,
also the second time this year for a weekend to just tryandrelaxabitandnotthinktoomuchoftheuneccessary.

YAY!

it's just my imagination.

been spending a major part of my time in school.
it's a not a bad thing.
cause as much as the work is a bitch.
the company and the gossips and bitchings made it all worth while.
heh heh.

been having sudden cravings of wanting to drink.
it's been a week or so.
then again,
considering the last time i was out drinking and partying was bout..
some four weeks ago.

so last night after mustafa-ing with shihan and after sending rischka to her mama,
shihan and i decided to just go and sit down and have a drink.
she suggested we need to go to a place with A I R C O N.
and guess what?
we ended up at taboo.
free entry before midnight for students.
a w e s o m e .
haha.
drinks were cheap anyways,
22 bucks for one whole jug.
and shihan and i got pretty high by half midnight.
the night was impromptuly fun and god i love it!
i'm surprised i had fun cause the last time i was at taboo was some two years ago.
haha.

yea, yea,
so much for wanting to keep out of the 'happy' area.
heh heh..

picture post soon, i promise!

okayy okayy,
i need to try and sober up before heading for school for another round of weekend indulgence.
nothing too fanciful.
just work, work and more workk.

happy weekend yall!

this innocence is brilliant.

so the past weekend was indeed the avril lavigne weekend.
and the concert last sunday was a-m-a-z-i-n-g.
shame i cried at the concert when she did 'innocence'.
but it's all her fault for doing 'when you're gone' and 'innocence' back to back.
and what's not so nice was the fact that she 'discounted' many songs singing just the verse, chorus then bridge and end it.
bloody hell.
and for that,
i have happily went to ask lead guitarist steve fekete about it and he told me it was AVRIL'S decision!
as 'she is midful of her voice since she's lost it a ouple of months ago in las vegas'.
honestly,
ask her to stop drinking that much and getting drunk almost every night and she'll be fine.

but, all in all,
it was a fandamntastis show.
out of the many many songs she sang,
i actually knew like 90% of them!
impressed with myself eh.
HAHA!!

so evan and devin left avril but the new band is looking just as fine.
the dancers are oh so cute and sweet and friendly.
i got some pictures with them.
will post them up soon.

no avril is not a fan of taking pictures with fans.
so i didnt get one with her at anywhere where i've bumped into her.

and last night was pretty nice.
met salleha and ryan for dinner.
since we wont have much of similar opportunities when ryan heads into the national resort.
had breeks and damn the cajun blackened fish i had was a blown away.
so fresh, so delicious.
chilled out at gloria jean's after that.
no i am still not a fan of coffee.
i was only sitting there and bitching and gossiping about every possible thing.
HAHA!!

and and and..
i'm so so so in love with pink.
not the colour but the singer pink.
god i love her new single 'so what' and the video.
she is so crazy that she is so cute.
damn i cant find her performance at the vmas.
but i am so in love with pink!
heh heh.

speaking of vmas,
britney opened the show with.. one line.
and it made me go..
'wwwwwwooooowwwwwww....'
after hunting for the video on youtube, dailymotion, redlasso, blah blah blah..
i finally found it with her opening her golden mouth and saying ONE FRIGGIN' LINE!
rihanna's disturbia was seriously rather disturbing.
as for the rest of the performaces,
i still havent got the chance to hunt for it.

but in anycase,
tutorial week yall!
which means intensive printmaking,
which as of now,
is not reflecting cause i am still sitting in front of my computer, blogging,
pink-ing and eating.
and time check,
18 minutes to noon.
well done..
HAHA!

well,
'i'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen!'

let me hear you go.. 'SHAMELESS MUCH!!'

haha.
i slept well and i am in a VERY good mood.
i reckon it's gonna be a good week ahead yall!

BOYS LIKE GIRLS

it's funny how you can name a band with such lame names.
trust me,
i still dont know why they name themselves 'boys like girls'.
haha.

in anycase,
the boys are pretty good looking but just a shame we didnt get to meet drummer john,
who is a david cook lookalike.
which left my album one spot for him.
damn.
how would i know if i didnt meet him?
that's cause he was walking in front of us but we didnt know he was in the band!
how dumb right?
HAHA!!

but i am contented with what i got when they were here.
i managed two photos each with the other three boys i met.
chilled out with bryan who is a complete typical american.
though he attempted to try and be a 'canadian as they have a better impression in people's mind as compared to americans.'

'nuff said.

pictures in!

lead singer, martin johnson
lead guitarist, paul digiovanni.
bassist bryan 'canadian' donahue.

incomplete.

hello september.
hello week seven.

it's wednesday and it's been a pretty slack week for me, like to be completely honest.
i have been coming home on time if not earlier.
and i havent been having the mood to do things i should be doing.
i think it's part of working kinda hard for six weeks and it just hit me that i need to take a breath before everything restart again when the next term continues.
wish me luckk.

i find it kinda fun to be making mistakes sometimes while doing my prints.
i think it's part of a learning process.
i've been told that the way i express my thoughts and feelings through words is so much better than my works.
so i need to work on that..

and i will post some sweet pictures of my prints up soon.
i promise.

in other news..
the past weekend was madness since the boys of boys like girls were in town.
to me,
i still like paul before i met them and after meeting them.
and bryan is a typical american boy,
which is a complete major turn off.
no details for that.
didnt get to meet drummer john,
david cook look-alike, from far.
(well, at least rina, ros and i thought so! HAHA!)
reason being..
we didnt know how he looked like and we saw him over three million times but we just treated him as another tourist in singapore.
howww dumbbb..
pictures of the other three boys tomorrow, maybe?

in any case,
avril this weekend!
manfred and i are so, so ready for the best damn tour!
cant wait!
HAHA!!