Thursday, January 15, 2009

and hide from my pride.

hello to you,
pretentious dr hyde/mr jekyll.

i just thought you are no longer who i think you are.
and i guess i have given up guessing and trying to discover.
dont bother and cant be bothered.
for now, at least.

so i guess after all these while,
i kinda figured out that we are not just "sort of" different but i am rather sure that we are different.
maybe it's just like blair and serena having occasional miscommunications and then without trying very hard to be well, they still get together like sisters and have an awesome time together nonetheless.
will we become like that?
only time will tell.

i dont know where the problem lies or what the problem is to begin with.
i think it's just you.
or could it be just me?

argh.
fuck it.

just leave me alone for a while.
it's been a while and let's just continue this weird relationship we've had.
i just think it'll benefit both you and me.
and there could be a third, fourth or fifth person invovled?
hmmm..

ohh
and please dont think i am jealous of you in anyway
i never was and never will i be.
and.. dont think i hate you,
cause i dont
i just dont even know who you are now to even judge you .
no wait,
i dont judge.

after so much typing, i think i can summarised everything into f o u r words.

i
have
fucked
it.