jump!

so i was given an additional two stars from april.
the stars that i'm talking about are those that you get from your primary teachers when you get full marks for your spelling or test.
yes she is that funnyy.
but just about thirty minutes ago,
i've been slammed by the other lecturer that my work is substandard and that i am not putting in enough effort.
i am vexed.
i dont know where i'm going and where i'm heading in my academic work alreadyy..
i thought i was doing well and maybe not take a five step jump every week but i thought i had already moved up two levels.
damn i was wrongg.

oh well..

in any case,
one step at a time..
i want to be better than i was, because i will be.

i dont know how sometimes a certain word or action can lead to something major.
major in terms of something that'll sort of lead you to think about your past,
memories return.
sometimes not those too nice ones.
i just wonder.
it's amazing how much we can remember thought it's just a simple flashback.
in case you're wondering,
no it's not about those unworthy ones.
it's about family.
my family.

family i dont even know how to communicate with them sometimes.
that's sad right?
thank god for the wonderful friends i have whom i have chosen to confide in.

go check out the band fireflight.
they are an awesome band that i've been digging since this morning.

my sunday will prolly be spent sitting in the gallery.
cause i've agreed to help out at the fine arts awards thingyy.
means i have to give zouk flea a miss.
damn.
no i'm fine.
thinking of the easy 25 bucks.

i wanna go drinking and dancing.
maybe tomorrow night.
maybe tonight..

oh well..

i am tired..