you are my last, my first.

i am on such a beyonce high i hate myself.
haha
from if i were a boy to halo to ave maria to single ladies to diva to sweet dreams..
god..
i cant believe i type all those without even stopping.
i am sasha fierce, too..
heh heh

anyways,
hope y'all had a great christmas.
i certainly did.
best of all,
the friday when everyone was back in office to work,
i was sleeping the hours away.
lazing in bed and greek-ing.
best of the best,
partying almost non stop
and now i still feel the craziest in my mind, body and soul.
HAHA!
it was that bad..
but i had such a great time especially at play.
bumped into marcus with vincent and his boo.

i cant wait for the next night out with farouk.
it's always madness and craziest whenever we're out.

did i mention the christmas night out with yvonne and her poly friends along with manfred, zan, lina, corissa and lina was a blast too?
boat quay then tantric.
a w e s o m e . . .

cant believe 2008 is coming to an end.
i am having mixed feelings about it.
it's a bitter sweet feeling.
somehow i want it to end quickly for i know 09 would be better
and someone i just wanna party the remaining '08 nights away in style.
hahaha
in style means.. getting drunk over and over again..
just like dan and vanessa, blair and nate, serena and jenny from the gossip girl book..

in case you're wondering,
yes i am at work,
and yes i am working and blogging at the same time.
who says i cant multi-task?
haha

last but not least,
i love myself for being crazy.
and i hate myself for not taking leave on the coming fridayy..

argh.
maybe, just maybe i should go on medical leavee..
HAHA!

see yall on facebook!

you be the queen, i'll be the clown.

so this past week's been pretty challenging for me.
was down with a fever and some other pretty typical sicknesses.
but this time around,
the fever escalted non stop and then fluctuated like the stock market.
and worst of all,
was almost being kept in the hospital for "further tests and examinations"..
well, i was being suspected of being down with the bloody dengue.
whatever it is,
i am all back to 36.9°C..

two days to christmas.
what are you guys doing?

i was planning to head up to bangkok since everything's pretty much cheaper than usual and considering it's the holiday season,
i thought of just treating myself to something nice and rewarding..
but shame thai airways and singapore air both just dont have an empty seat for me to fly there..
so, i might be heading up to kuala lumpur..
fingers crossed..

just dont wanna stay in singaporee..

i am so in love with the nonya show on tele.
ralph called me auntie todayy..

in other news,
for the first time..

i hate work.

but we're stuck where we are..

i know i havent been updating this space but it's just that work is getting not too easy these days.
and some one-of-a-kind insects need to be there to help screw other's life upside down.
oh well..
office politics and the lack of communication skills.
how i sympathy these tiny wee flies..

anyhoo,
according to eleanor,
i havent been posting pictures here and true enough,
it's been over a month of updates without pictures..

and so,
i have decided to post up some overdued pictures from two saturdays ago when i met yvonne and jiayu after close to six months!
oh my god, right?
haha
im not sure bout the other two,
but i had an awesome time with them.
the bitchings, the catching up and the what-is-going-on-with-your-life-right-now kinda thingg.
truly bliss..
if only there were less absentees.
heh heh

in case you havent realised,
i do love myself a little too much...
which resulted in these....
HAHA!!

in case you're wondering where the background were,
it's the newly opened city reservoir,
marina barrage!
:D

such a beautiful scene...

more photos from work, serena's tv party....
SOON!

happy birthday mum.

the one who gave me life.
the one who taught me the good and the bad.
the one who've always been there for me.
the one whom i call my mum..

happy birthday, gorgeous.

i run away.

these days i have been thinking too much.
crazy randoms running through my head.
i wish i was stronger than this.
i wish i knew how to be strong, really.
there are so many things i doubt.
so many things i am afraid of telling,
or am i just scared of them all?
things i am trying to run away from.
or do i not have the courage to just open up my eyes?
words that were meant to be spoken are being kept deep down inside.
or am i just hoping things would turn out the other way?

i wish everything i feel would be written all over my face but i have chosen a mask.
or have they been shown but to no avail?

no matter what it is,
life still go on.
it could be a good thing and at the same time it is bad.

sounding as confusing and contradicting as i can be..
maybe,
someday..
someday i will understandd..

god britneyy, i love you.

the lights, the camera, the action.

i feel dumb.
and please dont ask me why.
i have no answers myself.
just a random thought.

anyways,
these days my life's been pretty much,
nothing-to-exciting.
just work, work and workk.
cant believe i signed up for gallery sitting for the weekends.
haha
in other words,
it means more income.
heh

in case you havent realised,
manfred, joyce and i were featured on the new paper again last week.

i think they should just have us featured on a monthly basis and then pay us.
haha
and then pay us to go stalk.

yes, wishful thinkingg.

but in any case,
face book doesnt appeal to me much now.
must be the fact that i look at the computer screen for over 8 hours everyday at workk.
and when you come home,
you just wanna rest your eyes..

but that doesnt stop me from youtubing and "analysing" new music..
:P

nickleback's, akon's and kanye west's latest are worth spinning.
not quite a fan of the killer's latest effort.

in fact,
i am bloody hooked onto nickleback's and lady gaga's albums.
haha

last but not least..
i wanna go on a holi-holidayy!

and i wanna get drunk all over again..

blissssssss..

i like to sing-y sing-y sing-yy.

i aint a fan of playing mind games.
i dont like people who take my trust for granted.
and i really really dont like people who doubt me.

expressionless.

whats up gorgeous.

seriously,
i dont know how or where to begin.
just some thoughts latelyy,
not exactly lately,
just these days got me seated down and think about certain stuff in life.
and man,
i'm a filthy confused bitch.

i dont how to say these but
did i really mean what i said before?
they definitely werent jealousy,
prolly just some sorta things to say to make the whole situation looks nicer,
makes me look wiser as well..

damn,
i am feeling somewhat fucked in my head or some sort.

why do i feel like a friggin retarded crazy emo fool these days?

blahh.

play-ed last saturday.
manfred's officially 22 now.
one hella good partyy.
let's do it again!
:)

in other good news,
assessment is f i n a l l y
O V E R !

and now we have an equal good reason to be partying our asses off till the sun comes up!
unlimited vodka cranberry, gin tonic and asahi beer, please?
heh

ohh!
manfred, joyce and i met kylie.
yes that same kylie you are thinking.
M I N O G U E !
she is one tiny cute little nice lady.
god i love her alreadyy.
given the unnecessary media attention and flocks of passengers,
and other fans,
she still signed and created conversation..
someone please educate rihanna that in order to stay popular,
be nice..

back to income tomorrow!
the adventure continues from where it left off..
heh

be nice bitches.

have a great week ahead!

something told me so.

so,
since joining facebook,
i have surprised myself with a few things.
i am actually enjoying myself on facebook and i am bloody hooked onto it!
HAHA!
those bowling buddies, word challenge and that geo challenge thingy are so so addictive too.

anyways,
assessment is slowly drawing to an end now
which is something to smile about.
but on the other hand,
it's funny to say this but i'm gonna miss the printmaking workshop for a good few weeks now.
if only we were given ONE assignment and make a minimum of 25 prints for the whole of one semester,
own time own target,
i'd not see school as stressful.
haha
wishful thinking i know..

so dasimah turned (twenty) six on wednesday.
and today bff manfred turned twenty twooo.
:D

anyways,
looking at the holiday plans i have right now,
it seems like things are looking pretty fine.
i am going back to ntuc income to work.
and then gallery sitting on weekends for the first two weeks of december.
then off for short weekend getaway tripsss,
hmmmmm...
sounds like fun..

and,
recently,
people i meet have been asking me about why arent i seeing someone.

seriously,
that's a funny question.
which i gave a funny reply..

'cause i dont want to..'

and what i'm trying to say is..

'i dont see the point if it's only gonna be a one-way street..
and i dont see the point of putting effort to make something work when the other party just makes zero effort..'

okayy,
full stop.

in any case,
it's the weekend!
time to let your hair down and go on party on yourself yall!

i shall go on and watch my americas next top model finaleeeee..
:D

hollaaa.

hello facebook!

i'm not from underr.

yes,
50% of the ASSessment is over.
let's breathe a sigh of relief.

all in all,
i completed the print book (20 friggin' pages) and 3/4 of the thematic project.
i am pretty proud of myself actually.
haha

so, bring on the party yall!!

eh, no wait.
there's still the bloody rm theory essay and 'to dress' project.

mugging time for the last time this week and then it'll be alll over for a good 7 weeks.

hello income!
:D

i wanna go on a holidayy.
i am planning to go to somewhere exciting like vietnam or phnom penh..
i know i am being very adventurous but..
we only live once eh..

britney's leaked circus tracks are so addictive like estacy..
david archuleta's album kick ass..
i am back into my teeny bubblegum pop phase againn..

but all these make me happyy..
:D

a printmaker not a printer.

so tell me how screwed am i?
i am shy of ten prints to fulfilling the 20 pieces of prints and
none of my final project has been completed.
guess what?
tuesday's dooms day and i am fucked.

not forgetting previously rejected and incompleted works.

i
am
so
so
fucked,
seriouslyy.

:(

daniel,
wake up from you friggin idea and start getting your hands to sketch, to draw and to finally print!

whats the friggin' point?

what's the point of asking me if i like something when i already said i dont?
whats the point of asking when the decision has already been made?

fuck it.

i have enough things on my head to be side tracked onto something less important.

argh!

i sit here waitingg.

woke up to this beautiful bright sunny morning.
it's an obvious sign to a good day.
:)

but when i think about how much i still have left to do,
damn it's not even funnyy.
can someone give me the lightbulb above my head so i can just continue printing non stop, PLEASE..
i need about 11 images more for the remaining printbook and the last project,
which i have yet to start on.

ahhhhhh..

but on the other hand,
i am pretty excited about moving house.
from a very centralised place to somewhere in the east.
new environment yall!

and in other news,
i am hooked onto not only the gossip girl tv series,
but i am also hooked onto the friggin' book series!
haha.
gotta go get my fourth book soon
and borrow the remaining from rischka to read during the holidayss..
gallery sitting for a couple of weekends,
and being back at ntuc income..
which also means..
K A C H I N G !
the cash is rolling in..
haha.

time to book a short trip outta town all over again..

you're everything i wanted when you came alongg.

these couple of days been pretty challenging for me.
i am fighting with myself to stay sane.
i dont know what exactly i am fighting for
but it's just something deep down just turned its back around and came back to haunt me once more.

i dont know what i'm talking about and i dont know many things that's been floating in my mind.

i just want this to end as soon as possible,
preferably now..

since assessment is so so near..

sighh

would you believe me when i tell you that the new pussycat dolls album is making me more depressed than i already am?

listen to hush hush, i'm done and happily never after..

music's in my soul.

good bye theatre banana chicken mcnuggets.
hello assessment.

in just under two friggin weeks,
it's judgement day.

i still have so much to do..

h e l p !

gotta be somebody for me out there.

not sure if you know but i was never too big a fan of those rock music.
rock music i mean those very head-banging-able kind.
but i was exposed to this track by nickleback.
one of their new song called
'gotta be somebody' and oh my god.
i am so hooked onto it.
for the second night in the row,
the song has been played over 32 times.
yes it's good.
not you average type of nickleback track but this one is good.

thought you might wanna check it out?
haha.

so..
the assessment fever is here.
or rather,
everyone's back at their sky high stress level and i aint no exception.
printbook, 20 prints and i have only 8.
not forgetting one new assignment whereby we need to put at least two techniques into one piece of work and we need to do four prints.
i a m s c r e w e d . . .

tomorrow's theatre assessment.
which i am, surprisingly, looking forward to it.
cause..
i wanna get it over and done with.
like what shihan said...
'i'm not gonna give a damn what they're gonna say cause it's already the last lesson..'
upon hearing that,
i feel relieved cause i wasnt the only one feeling that i-just-wanna-get-it-over-and-done-with attitude.
heh

in other news,
they have conveniently moved lipstick jungle from wednesday to friday this week.
thanks to the presidential elections.
but i am excited to know who will win the elections though.
haha

talk about politics.

we know who we should vote for.
if i were an U S of A citizen and am eligible to vote,
i would vote for obama.
:)

back to theatre sketches for noww..

and ohh,
'gotta be somebody' is playing for the 36th time now.
HAHA!

03111989

happy birthday to you.

happy birthday to you.

happy birthday to rischkasyafiqaputrijonawi

happy birthday to youuuuuuu!!

YEAH!

go shorty,

it's r's brithday.

we're gonna party like it's my birthdayy!

HAHA!!

YAY!!

rischka is 19.

the youngest printmaker has turned 19 years OLD!

heh heh

so, where's the party?

can i endure it somemore?

the unplanned super last minute night out to celebrate rischka's advanced nineteenth totally kick ass.
eleanor, afiq, amalina, manfred, shihan, rischka and i were dancing like some sorta dumbfucks on the dancefloor.
then again,
the last time amalina and rischka clubbed was way back in feburary!
haha
what could be better to party on a halloween night?
god it was fun but too tiring after a while..

all in all,
it was a very good night.
especially when you are with the right crowd.

:D

my highlight of the evening was the red clown.
heh heh

i am wondering when will all these questions in my head will have answers to them.
i wonder if the truth will ever be told.
crush, infactuation or love?
i dont believe in those these days.
it's like a game, a drug an obsession.
it just ends, kills and dies after a while.
argh.
i'm gonna get over it..

pictures pictures and more pictures.... (in the next entryy..)

no, i dont believe you.

first of all,
happy deepavali to everyone who enjoyed one monday off from wherever you were.
:)
sorry for the lateness but.. heh

so tuesday's critique was rather mad.
pretty much tears around but heck,
it's only critique and whatever it is,
we should stand on what we want as the ones behind those works,
as the ones who created them who had a vision for them.
but sometimes the words they used are rather harsh and have no mercy at all.
oh well...

but anyways,
i hope everyone will do well for the upcoming assessment in under three weeks.
A R G H !

i hate theatre to the core.
it is taking up too much time.
so much time i dont even know why they told us it was gon be relaxing.
bloody hell.
i dont mind being led into craziness but i am not a fan of being lied to.
arghhh.
looking on the brighter side,
one more week and we're done.
yay for now.

haha

oh my.
it's been a while since i last blogged and all i talk about is school..
booooo..

anddd,
starting this week,
i'll be back in school seven,
S E V E N days a week.
wish me luck.

alrighty,
this boy here needs to be in bed now to recharge..

happy weekend yall!

he's like a star.

so the weekend is here and for once,
it felt like a weekend.
i had pretty much enough rest,
no booze and getting work done despite the rushing here and there.
but it's all been good and it makes me happyy.

but that's not the point i am here typing this entry here..

somehow,
there is some sort of feeling deep down that tells me i'm right about certain things.
certain things that i would call them revelation and new beginnings.
i think i have figured out what has been the distance between two people before.
it have made me realised it's better things are better off this way.
at least there aint no complications and no committment.

and also in my other random thoughts,
i think i am not ready to be in a relationship or even to date someone.
i think i'm gonna stay the way i am now for a while and sort things out by myself and if the right one should come along,
no matter what we do,
how deep we sink and how far we run,
nothing can stop it.
like what avril sings and manfred wrote,
everything will work out perfectly if things were meant to be..

i am a happy boy todayy.

and just in case you are looking for new music,
head for pink's funhouse album and sugababes' catfights and spotlights.
both albums are on the top of my playlist now.
haha.
maybe cause i am bais cause they are two of my favourites.

anddd,
if you want a copy of the radio 1003 interview,
drop me an email at keep.fingers.crossed@gmail.com
with the subject radio 1003!
and i will send you the interview.
i am too lazy to look for a host that will stream it,
so i might as well send it to youu.
remember,
it's in mandarin..
heh heh.

and in other news,
the proof v exhibition where my work will also be exhibited will go on from next thurs,
23rd oct till 4th nov at alliance francaise.
it's free admission so do pop by and show some love if you could find timee.

and yay!!
bali bali bali balii..

:D

where are you all?

nothing much happened lately except the fact that,
early mornings till late nights in school.
it's pretty tiring but i feel super achieved especially when someone pop over and tell you their opinions on the work.
be it good or bad.

i think i am freaking myself out.
i am a year three student and i still have problem with colours choice and composition.
ahh damn!
hwee khim thinks these are some thing that will come to me naturally and all i have to do is to do more and let it come fine me.

oh well..

and one thing i am concerned about..
one thing that's been floating in my head for a while now.

to be less specific and be less political,
let's say it's just the physical distance.
where are the people i care about and people i enjoy being around with..

anyways,
it's the weekend.
and i'm gonna have fun in school and partyyy..
with my prints and my silkscreen and my copper plate.
haha.

i can smell the bali sea alreadyy..

friendly is 'you shan'.

so joyce, manfred and i got up very early this morning and headed for the radio 1003 studio for our first live radio interview with shun jue and wan fen.
and mannnn..
it was so much fun and i would do this again if we are being offered another opportunity.
can we be greedy and request for 91.3? or 98.7? or power 98?
we struggled our way through and oh well,
seems like all is well..
except for some on air accidents!
HAHA!!

let the photos do the talkingg..

deejays at work..
shun jie and wan fenn..
off-air, finally!
whatever it was,
it was damn fun to be doing this kinda thing..
HAHA!
i enjoyed every second of it!

anyways,
it's been a great weekend except some accidental childish screw ups but other than that,
all is well..

:)

lifehouseLIFEHOUSElifehouse

yes the 'you and me' trio were in town to promote their fourth album and they performed two sets during their stay here.
one for some nokia private event and another to support and promote their album.
sorry but the publicity for this concert is next to the words 'really, really bad'.
i didnt know until i was randomly surfing and realised they were coming which was about two days before the event..
well done, i knoww..

but nonetheless,
pictures are in..

lead singer jason wade looks as hot as he looked on all those albums and singles cover.
only difference,
he doesnt look 'that' blonde..
but still very visual pleasingg.
HAHA!!

and this is drummer rick woolstenhulme.
h i l a r i o u s guyy with he and his 'have a good night, YALL!'
i like his tattoos thoughh.
heh heh.

finally, bryce soderberg.
this giant is indeed a giant.
he is so tall he is almost maksim,
but the rock sort..

in other stalking news,
tuned in to radio 100.3fm for stalkerazzi's first ever live radio interview at bout 9ish IN THE MORNING!
get your lazy bums up alright?
HAHA!!
and, hey,
it'll be in mandarin and i'm scaredd.l
isten to my screw ups ehh.
HAHA!!

honest mistake-D.

"daniel, anything you truly want, is worth fighting for..'
and that was what i learnt on this week's episode of ugly betty when betty said that to daniel meade.
and it made me realise something..

so, this week have been pretty much about craziness in school and getting more work done.
the selection for our works for the alliance française yesterday was pretty intense.
what was more important was the fact that all of the printmakers will be exhibiting our works at an upcoming show called 'proof 5' and i am so so excited about it.
my first printmaking exhibition and i believe it's gonna open some opportunities in the futuree.
heh heh..

many things are floating in my head.
research methods presentation.
printmaking print book assignment - 20 images.
printmaking one more silkscreen image.
first major critique in late october.

and of course some stuff that are not so important on the surface,
turned out to be rather important on the inside of my mind, body and heart.
hmmm..

okayy, enough of emo shit.

here are some stuff to smile about.
emilyn's twenty-second surprise birthday partyy.
and this is the most updated picture of all the majors printmakers.
together with technical officer hwee khim and lecturer miguel.

and for someone who is sick,
rischka took really good pictures..
and i have no idea what zhou rui was trying to do in all the photos we tookk.

haha.

and ohh,
i am so hooked on britney's comeback track, womanizer.
heh hehh.

shame that barney is so farr awayy.
october tenth.

sighh.

fantasy realised is a nightmare.

a fortnight close to five months and i am still not over it.
i wanna be where i was and just stay there.
i just want to go back to yesterdays before all those shit accusations occur.
those were good times.
and good things always come to an end.

like what zhou 'sotong ball' rui told me.
we humans always yearn for something we cannot have.
after much deep thoughts about it,
i kinda agree to it.

i think i've been a bloody idiot who's just been hoping for things to turn out differently.
i have all the reasons in the world to hate it and leave it.
somehow,
i am not doing that.
in fact,
i want the opposite.

i think i'm just dumb.

these days i've been feeling kinda down with all random thoughts and hopes.
people come and people go.
no one ever seem to just stay on with me and fight the fight with me.
i am not wishing for another someone in my life.
but i am just hoping for something sweet would happen.
it not necessarily have to be something romantic.

sighh.

i think i'm just dumb.

ahhh shucks!

so school's been really, really crazy since i got back to singapore on mondayy and everything's been zooming past me and i'm scaredd.
haha
cause everything's going too past and i still have loads to do and tomorrow,
or in under nine hours,
i'm having my first major printmaking critique session and we're all pretty much screwed with the exception of one individual.

okayy,
i am going to have an early night so i can wake up feeling fresh and be sure of what to say and what not to.
so....

have a good weekend.

starting this week,
many people are popping by singapore and i'm excited.
haha..

kuala lumpur, yall!

this is my hundredth post and it's sweet that i am blogging using brenton's lappy right here in kuala lumpur.

so far it's been really really fun and everything seemed so new to me.
haha
the five hour coach ride was awesome.
and damn i almost missed my bus cause of some damn bitch who told me to wait when the bus was actually leaving.
and the spaghetti on board sucked..
but all in all,
it was an awesome ride from singapore to kuala lumpur.

this hotel flamingo is so beautiful.
what a view from the room and nice room..
:D

photos will be up when i get back to singapore..

and ohh,
due to some unforeseen circumstances,
i'm only gonna leave kuala lumpur on monday instead of tomorrow..
well,
the coach got no more seats for me tomorrow.
so i'm gonna be up by 5 to catch my 6am coach back home and back to school for more madness..

god, i'm so in love with kl.
everything's so cheap
like a half litre of vodka cost under rm14.
when one glass of vodka in singapore cost almost 11 fuckin' bucks!

which explains why right now i'm kinda high and drunkk.
HAHA!!

alrighty yall,
hope you're having a good weekend cause i am having a blast right here, right noww.

i hope rischka is missing me as she told me so.
haha.

party on me yall!!

p-itch. k-itch.

so with the random addition,
i'm out.

sometimes i run, sometimes i hide.

this is the start of the second tutorial week,
which so far have been too much more fun than i expected.
heh heh
in good and bad ways, really.

my second image for intaglio will be printed by the end of this week!

so, the iloveyou messge i have on my msn is kinda getting some of your attention,
in the other, the wrong, way.
well, i told myself iloveyou just before i fell asleep last saturday night in front of the mirror.
just for the sake of randomness.
honestlyy..
and to those who thought it was youknowwho,
no it's not.
you might not believe me anyways.
but no,
i am still fighting with myself to get over all these unnecessary shit.

i'm gonna go into a different direction..i
'm gonna hate him.

anywayss,
as promised, pictures, pictures
and more pictures..

two weeks ago was ms lavigne's concert,
as you would already have known..
here are some snaps..
not of the concert but of the pictures i took with the people who made the tour possible.

first up,
jimmy mcgorman.
avril's rhythm guitarist.
the one who replaced my evan taubenfeld!

steve fekete.
the one who replaced devin bronson..
the lead guitarist which left manfred going 'gaga' over him for the entire time they were here.
and manfred managed one picture with him EACH DAY!
yes,
talk about obsession.
HAHA!!

here are the four dancers avril brought on tour with her.
i dont know their names but i remember one of them is called bj and other is called sofie?

and last week we gave miguel a surprised birthday party which "meant a lot to him"..
so it made us all very happyy.
HAHA!
and i think he should be also with the three-days supply of coke zero!
:P

so, this is the official year three printmaking students (minus zhou rui).
together with the technical officer, heww khim.
who is just like anyone of us.
she is damn damn funny.
and ohh,
spot rischka's and miguel's similarities!
heh heh

(L-R) daniel, rischka, chien ling, miguel, emilyn, hwee khim, jasmine, dasimah

and dont ask me why that jasmine was in 'yellow'
while the rest of us are in black.
it was pretty unplanned when everyone walked in wearing black with jasmine being the only one wearing yellow.
so, she decided to use her black and white apron to be the back-up plan which was completely hideous!
HAHAHA!!

and here are more of jasmine being the odd-one-out and being super bright among us.
haha..


okayy, enough of aunty jas.
and so after jasmine taking centre stage..
rischka and i did some spontaneous "modelling".
which were snapped by dasimah.
clearly, she rocks and rikky and i both agreed that these shots are friendster-friendly.
HAHA!

that's all yall.
all of a sudden it became a little longer than an essay but it's insanely long.
HAHA!

anyways, have a great week ahead!
i'm heading up to kuala lumpur for the second time in my life,
also the second time this year for a weekend to just tryandrelaxabitandnotthinktoomuchoftheuneccessary.

YAY!

it's just my imagination.

been spending a major part of my time in school.
it's a not a bad thing.
cause as much as the work is a bitch.
the company and the gossips and bitchings made it all worth while.
heh heh.

been having sudden cravings of wanting to drink.
it's been a week or so.
then again,
considering the last time i was out drinking and partying was bout..
some four weeks ago.

so last night after mustafa-ing with shihan and after sending rischka to her mama,
shihan and i decided to just go and sit down and have a drink.
she suggested we need to go to a place with A I R C O N.
and guess what?
we ended up at taboo.
free entry before midnight for students.
a w e s o m e .
haha.
drinks were cheap anyways,
22 bucks for one whole jug.
and shihan and i got pretty high by half midnight.
the night was impromptuly fun and god i love it!
i'm surprised i had fun cause the last time i was at taboo was some two years ago.
haha.

yea, yea,
so much for wanting to keep out of the 'happy' area.
heh heh..

picture post soon, i promise!

okayy okayy,
i need to try and sober up before heading for school for another round of weekend indulgence.
nothing too fanciful.
just work, work and more workk.

happy weekend yall!

this innocence is brilliant.

so the past weekend was indeed the avril lavigne weekend.
and the concert last sunday was a-m-a-z-i-n-g.
shame i cried at the concert when she did 'innocence'.
but it's all her fault for doing 'when you're gone' and 'innocence' back to back.
and what's not so nice was the fact that she 'discounted' many songs singing just the verse, chorus then bridge and end it.
bloody hell.
and for that,
i have happily went to ask lead guitarist steve fekete about it and he told me it was AVRIL'S decision!
as 'she is midful of her voice since she's lost it a ouple of months ago in las vegas'.
honestly,
ask her to stop drinking that much and getting drunk almost every night and she'll be fine.

but, all in all,
it was a fandamntastis show.
out of the many many songs she sang,
i actually knew like 90% of them!
impressed with myself eh.
HAHA!!

so evan and devin left avril but the new band is looking just as fine.
the dancers are oh so cute and sweet and friendly.
i got some pictures with them.
will post them up soon.

no avril is not a fan of taking pictures with fans.
so i didnt get one with her at anywhere where i've bumped into her.

and last night was pretty nice.
met salleha and ryan for dinner.
since we wont have much of similar opportunities when ryan heads into the national resort.
had breeks and damn the cajun blackened fish i had was a blown away.
so fresh, so delicious.
chilled out at gloria jean's after that.
no i am still not a fan of coffee.
i was only sitting there and bitching and gossiping about every possible thing.
HAHA!!

and and and..
i'm so so so in love with pink.
not the colour but the singer pink.
god i love her new single 'so what' and the video.
she is so crazy that she is so cute.
damn i cant find her performance at the vmas.
but i am so in love with pink!
heh heh.

speaking of vmas,
britney opened the show with.. one line.
and it made me go..
'wwwwwwooooowwwwwww....'
after hunting for the video on youtube, dailymotion, redlasso, blah blah blah..
i finally found it with her opening her golden mouth and saying ONE FRIGGIN' LINE!
rihanna's disturbia was seriously rather disturbing.
as for the rest of the performaces,
i still havent got the chance to hunt for it.

but in anycase,
tutorial week yall!
which means intensive printmaking,
which as of now,
is not reflecting cause i am still sitting in front of my computer, blogging,
pink-ing and eating.
and time check,
18 minutes to noon.
well done..
HAHA!

well,
'i'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen!'

let me hear you go.. 'SHAMELESS MUCH!!'

haha.
i slept well and i am in a VERY good mood.
i reckon it's gonna be a good week ahead yall!

BOYS LIKE GIRLS

it's funny how you can name a band with such lame names.
trust me,
i still dont know why they name themselves 'boys like girls'.
haha.

in anycase,
the boys are pretty good looking but just a shame we didnt get to meet drummer john,
who is a david cook lookalike.
which left my album one spot for him.
damn.
how would i know if i didnt meet him?
that's cause he was walking in front of us but we didnt know he was in the band!
how dumb right?
HAHA!!

but i am contented with what i got when they were here.
i managed two photos each with the other three boys i met.
chilled out with bryan who is a complete typical american.
though he attempted to try and be a 'canadian as they have a better impression in people's mind as compared to americans.'

'nuff said.

pictures in!

lead singer, martin johnson
lead guitarist, paul digiovanni.
bassist bryan 'canadian' donahue.

incomplete.

hello september.
hello week seven.

it's wednesday and it's been a pretty slack week for me, like to be completely honest.
i have been coming home on time if not earlier.
and i havent been having the mood to do things i should be doing.
i think it's part of working kinda hard for six weeks and it just hit me that i need to take a breath before everything restart again when the next term continues.
wish me luckk.

i find it kinda fun to be making mistakes sometimes while doing my prints.
i think it's part of a learning process.
i've been told that the way i express my thoughts and feelings through words is so much better than my works.
so i need to work on that..

and i will post some sweet pictures of my prints up soon.
i promise.

in other news..
the past weekend was madness since the boys of boys like girls were in town.
to me,
i still like paul before i met them and after meeting them.
and bryan is a typical american boy,
which is a complete major turn off.
no details for that.
didnt get to meet drummer john,
david cook look-alike, from far.
(well, at least rina, ros and i thought so! HAHA!)
reason being..
we didnt know how he looked like and we saw him over three million times but we just treated him as another tourist in singapore.
howww dumbbb..
pictures of the other three boys tomorrow, maybe?

in any case,
avril this weekend!
manfred and i are so, so ready for the best damn tour!
cant wait!
HAHA!!

fuck space.

dear haters and losers.
i dont need anything from any secondary divas and nothing especially coming from some son of a bitch who knows completely nothing about me.
i mean.. please..
dont pretend you know me much when you're just another piece of weed creeping around the in betweens of cracked road tiles.
i dont need to be called 'emotionlly unstable' and i dont need you to judge.
so, please.
as a kind favour,
please fuck off..
as far as you're able.
much appreciated.

theatre's a bitch.
i dont understand why we're still trying to see things from her prespective when we each have a mind of our own.
in rischka's words,
"space maniac" indeed.

in other news,
the ever lovely su shihan turned twenty-three todayy!!
:D

i have wished her twenty-three times verbally and another twenty-three on paper.
so this is my number twenty-fourth,
H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y S H I H A N !
haha
serena made a tray of blueberry jelly with a nice micheal phelps standee on it.
super cute i tell youu.
haha.

anyways,
i better go back to my printmaking workk.

hope your week's been good.
mine is just.. idontevenknowhowtodescribe.

okayy byee!

energy?

this is rischka syafiqa.
she is one of the bestest classmates.
i told her that she cannot go on any mc.
cause without her,
i cant function in the printmaking room.

she is 'that' important and significant, alright?

haha.

hello hello to our new assignment.
this one is different.
some company is gonna commission 20 of us to do something for them.
exhibition in nov.
and all ideas and sketches due.. next fri.
booooo.

as if we dont have enough printmaking stress already..
dammit.
but this one we'll be paid.
and mr chiew thinks it's good money for us.
but it's even better money for the school.
cause the school just go there and negotiate a deal with them and make a 20% deal out of every workk.
well donee.

cool down, daniel.
let the research process begin!
a r g h !

whatever it is,
it's been a happy day and i shant spoil it.
let's hope this week will be a good one.

hello to avril next weekk.
for me it's more of deryck and getting my sum 41 stuff signed!
HAHA!!

ohh did i mention bff is gonna take me to the avril concert with him?
blissssssss..
:D

gimme gimme moreee.

omg.
i just watched the britney cameo on madonna's tour.
it's fandamntastic.
she looks so friggin' hot!!
please go youtube it.
it's damn goooood.
i cant wait for her to release her next album later this year.
it's brit brit y'all!!
i mean..
it's britney bitch!
HAHAHAHAHA!!

and i have just re-embarked on my pushing daisies.
it's so good i watched two episodes straight.
and i have officially watched camp rock five times.
heh heh.
so much for laughing at rischka!
:P

and also caught the american mall.
the male lead is scaryy.
i like the female lead thoughh.
the songs were pretty lame thoughh.
but, it's worth watching it..
online.

trust me.

haha.

perfect sunday y'all!!

happy week ahead!!
:D

this is real. this is me.

what a lazy, wet and cold saturdayy to wake up to.
such a bliss.
but it's kinda made me feel very lazy and i just dont feel like doing anything,
at all.
now that's badd.
haha.

popped the weekend with the meet up with the fabulicious income ex-colleagues last eveningg.
we headed for dinner at esplanade at this place called..
(erm.. a name which sound kinda wrongg..)
sourpuss..
food wasnt fantastic and the portion was small.
but the company was awesome.
couldnt and wouldnt trade for something else than thatt.
so after dinner,
there was fireworks..
booooo.
i am still not a fan of those stuff.
never interest me.
in fact,
it scares me.
i know,
go ahead and laugh at meee.
heh heh.

anyhoooo,
i just caught the new episodes of project runway and project runway australia.
they designed for drag queens and kelly rowland respectively.
a real challenge and apparently,
the best episode so farrr.
i l o v e i t.

and i just caught camp rockk.
rischka, laugh at meee.
i actually liked it.
god it's better than high school musical.
and joe jonas is pretty good looking from certain angles isnt he?
heh heh.
like what rischka said,
cheap thrill.
indeed it was..

that's what happened when your saturday has no plans and it's wet, cold and lazyyy..

but it's all goooood.

andd,
sometimes it makes me wonder if human beings actually understand.
like.. sometimes,
when we talk, we tend to be a little careless with our choice of words and the lack of certain details hence,
leaving the opposite party a little sense of confusion and not knowing exactly what we are trying to put across..
and on the other hand,
when we get to specific, they push their luck and continue doing things that would turn you off completelyy.

i think it's pretty obvious who i'm talking aboutt.
i'm very sure you understood what i told you before considering english is your primary and secondary language..
and you're supposed to be super advanced with your command in english.
so, please..
just leave it and leave me alone,
for good.

much appreciated.
thank youu.

in any case,
hope your weekend's going well..

LOO!

that is the name that people have been calling in school.
dont get me wrong.
i am totally cool with it.
all thanks to rischka who started the whole thing
with mohan continuing it.
haha.

i think as much as the stress level in school is hitting the maximum level,
i, or rather, we, have been finding more excuses to slack more than ever.
which is not too much of a bad thing.
which means we are working hard and partying hard at the same timee..
which britney will prolly shout,
'party on me y'all!'
HAHA!!

i feel happy.
i am happy i dont even know why.
trust me,
not boys related.
just happy in general.

lunch with ryan and marine yesterday was awesome.
what was even better was the fact that i met many familiar faces after lunch back in office.
they are still ohsolovely..
to me, they are such wonderful colleaguess.
i cant wait to go back there to workk for them again.
i heard that they are all gonna ot this weekk.
poor themmm..

looking forward to the dinner date on friday with most of them.
people who cant make it,
i will hunt you down personally.
nah, just kiddinggg.

heh heh heh.

anyone heard michelle williams' unexpected album?
damn it's good.
sorry kelly, but michelle's doing better on this one.
i am still not a fan of beyoncee.
like honestlyy.

and and andd..

i miss manfredd.
i havent seen him all week.
since last wednesdayy.
hmmm..

and joyce is in down under.
apparently she is having a friggin' good time there.
whenever she goes overseas for work,
it seems like she is there on an all expenses paid holidayy.
damn that girl sure knows how to enjoy!

HAHA!

and by the wayy,
i am too tired to continue.

and guess what?
since i got back at 4ish till now,
i havent started doing anything or anything close to school.
been online, project runway australia-ing and clothes planning..

S H I T !

on the brighter note,
in oct, it's HELLO BALI!!
:D

hello week fivee.

so manfred, joyce and i were featured on yesterday's new paper.
it was pretty crazy cause the initial interview took over three hours.
and to shian, i bet you spent a couple of nights typing it out and collating everything.
thank you new paper for that 'publicity'.
HAHA!!

the weekend was pretty nice.
clubbed on saturdayy and god,
it was pretty nice till some drama shit happened.
details are better left unsaid and unmentioned.
but all in all,
it was a pretty nice evening.

yesterday afternoon was spent at the nafa gallery.
i was taking care of the works and looking after the gallery.
quite nice and easy money.
but if i didnt club the night before,
maybe it'd have been better.
haha.
some visitors asked me very weird questions.
but oh well..
i managed to bullshit my way throughh.
heh heh..

anyhoo,
week five started.
stress level hitting max.
but i still need to have a pretty nice time management to play and to workk.
otherwise,
i'll suffer.
haha..

printmaking is making me excited and confused at the same time.
sorta scary to be thinking of what is gonna happen next.
the next technique we'll be touching is the copper plate thing.
which is a complete time consumer.
thinking back,
the previous two assignment arent fully done yet..
so....

i think it's time for an early nightt.

these rashes on my neck and my arms are killing me.
i will pay the doctor a little visit tomorrow and hope it's nothing too serious.
fingers crossedd..

income for lunch tomorrow.
and friday for dinner.
sooooo looking forward to seeing those bunch of people!
;)

jump!

so i was given an additional two stars from april.
the stars that i'm talking about are those that you get from your primary teachers when you get full marks for your spelling or test.
yes she is that funnyy.
but just about thirty minutes ago,
i've been slammed by the other lecturer that my work is substandard and that i am not putting in enough effort.
i am vexed.
i dont know where i'm going and where i'm heading in my academic work alreadyy..
i thought i was doing well and maybe not take a five step jump every week but i thought i had already moved up two levels.
damn i was wrongg.

oh well..

in any case,
one step at a time..
i want to be better than i was, because i will be.

i dont know how sometimes a certain word or action can lead to something major.
major in terms of something that'll sort of lead you to think about your past,
memories return.
sometimes not those too nice ones.
i just wonder.
it's amazing how much we can remember thought it's just a simple flashback.
in case you're wondering,
no it's not about those unworthy ones.
it's about family.
my family.

family i dont even know how to communicate with them sometimes.
that's sad right?
thank god for the wonderful friends i have whom i have chosen to confide in.

go check out the band fireflight.
they are an awesome band that i've been digging since this morning.

my sunday will prolly be spent sitting in the gallery.
cause i've agreed to help out at the fine arts awards thingyy.
means i have to give zouk flea a miss.
damn.
no i'm fine.
thinking of the easy 25 bucks.

i wanna go drinking and dancing.
maybe tomorrow night.
maybe tonight..

oh well..

i am tired..

overlapped.

complicated.
overlapped.
mixed.

this is exactly how i am feeling right now.
no whys alright.
i dont even know why to be completely honest.

coldplay, carrie underwood and mariah carey and on rotation on my ipod now.
it's all those sort of more 'depressed' songs that's playing.
emo would be a better choice of the word used.
what a shame.

let's move on to avril lavigne, katy perry and pussycat dolls soon.
the happier bunch of ladees.

today's been a pretty nice monday.
everything was pretty much ookaayyy.
research methods is such a bitch.
especially the theory part.
i like the presentation of my fellow beautiful classmates but not too much a fan of that damn discussion.
it's like when i wanna speak out,
i get drowned by other nonsensical voices.
so i remained silence.
then the lecturer will ask my questions and i will be hunt down with a major question mark.
argh.

school school school..
so much to do i dont even know where to begin.
now i'm scaredd.

in brighter news,
jb tomorrow morning.
and bali in oct.
hello mr relax.
holla atcha!

awww..
that's so blayne.
blayne walsh from project runway season five is so damn fine.

did i mention daniel feld is also kinda hot too?

okayy, have fun.
i shall start on my mapping memoryy.

a r g h !

casual significancee.

triple post.

"it's nice to know that you were theree
thanks for acting like you cared
and making me feel like I was the only onee
it's nice to know we had it all
thanks for watching as I fall
and letting me know we were doneee."

- avril lavigne "my happy ending"


"these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erasee"

- evanescence "my immortal"


"...tears come streaming down your facee
when you lose something you can't replacee
when you love someonee
but it goes to wastee
could it be worsee?"

- coldplay "fix you"



in case you're wondering,casual significance refers to some song lyrics which i can relate to at a particular moment.

the cyclee.

i wonder..
why have i been committing the same 'crime' over and over again.
someone, please tell me why?

the cycle of repeating this damn thing is somehow
turning me into a different person.
making feel like shit all the time.
and hoping for things to go back to yesterdays.

some songs have been pretty awesome.
namely the older ones.
the made me feel like when i am feeling as shitty as ever,
these people who wrote those songs were feeling the same way too.
meaning,
i am not alone in this world.
they just spoke it in the word of music and putting it across in nicer words with melody.
look out for the next 'casual significance'..

so i turned twenty two days back..
thanks to eleanor, gracia, rischka, serena, dasimah, jasmine, tiffany, shihan and bff manfred for organising such an amazing surprise party for me and shihan.
i cannot thank you guys enough for all those wonderful food..
we had steamboat in school,
in the balcony area just outside our studio.
it was a really really pleasant surprise.
and thanks to serena for bringing that steamboat thingy.
and of course thank you to manfred for making me carry my heavy stuff to and from school!
so nice to now that you planned it with bighead eleanor.
HAHA!

thanks to everyone who made it so sweet and yummilicious.
the choco banana cake without any traces of nuts and raisins.
thank you all!!

and also thanks to one and all who sent me a text, message on friendster, fridae or myspace, comment on friendster or myspace, called me..
sorry if i didnt reply but big big hugs to you for remembering my birthdayy.

so i caught the gay-themed film, shelter last night.
it was a very sweet and pretty touching film i have to say.
a movie on exploring sexuality and making different choices in life which revolves around love, family and friends.
please catch it if you have the chance.
youtube have the full film in multiple parts.
but it's worth spending eighty-eight minutes on.

alrighty,
i think this twenty year old grandfather have been typing way too much this time around.

rainy sundays make me lazyy.
awwwwwwww..

back to research methods' drawingg..
ohhh shucks!

to you.
somehow i thought you're unlike anyone i've met before.
indeed you are.
we shared an intense week together but things didnt work out as i have wished for.
then we agreed on being friends but shit happens.
then we burnt out.
a simple element of trust is not there.
i should be hating you but i aint.
i should have let you go but you did first.
i should have said goodbye but i have chosen to cling on.
now the one who is losing out on is me.
i have no one to blame but me, myself and i.

now i am nothing but a fool, a clown who have made a fool out of myself.

i just had to ring you up when i got really drunk the other night.
shame on me.
i dont remember what i've said throughout that eleven minutes phonecall.
maybe i said some silly things but i know i meant it.

but i am gonna choose to go back on my words now.
whatever that could've been said doesnt stand for long.
i need to move away and move on.

i am now looking at things from a third party's view.

we have different purposes.
sex is not what i am after.
i am after something that might not even exist.
settling down and being loved.

in any case,
i wish you well in all you do.

new found gloryy.

honestly,
i have no idea what kinda songs new found glory play,
no idea how did the members look like.
and have never heard anything of them in anyday of my life.

except the fact that paramore's hayleyy was dating one of them.
which one,
sorry, i dont know.

haha.

this is just how bad my research was for this year's singfest.
all i know was melee and jason mraz <3
maybe cause i own their albums and was very very excited to meet them in personn.
heh heh.

backk on track..
the boys of new found glory are very nice people actually.
they arent unfriendly or whatsoever..
initially i was scared cause i saw those tattooed arms and legs.
damn me and my stereotypes..
haha.

in anycase,
if you are a fan of new found glory and didnt get the chance to catch them live,
not to worry,
i got word from one of the boys that they will be heading back on our shores soon enough.
how soon?
i was told feb or mar next year..

look out y'all!!

lead vocalist jordan pundikk..
lead guitarist, chad gilbertt..rhythm guitarist, steve kleinn..bassist ian grushka.. and lastly, drummer cyrus bolooki..

with these boys,
it marks the fullstop of the whole photo collection from singfest this year.
what an exciting three days..

and i cant wait for singfest 2009!!

rickk astleyyy.

1980s pop star graced this year's singfest as well..
he look sorta unlike what i had seen of him on promo pictures and on his web.
but thank god manfred and i spotted him while he was making his way to go shopping.
haha.

he was nice though.

i heard he doesnt even have a record label now and
he's pretty much one of those very few has-beens who are still actually touringg,
and singing songs they've sung over two million times?

okay, i'm sorry if i sounded mean.
but no hard feelings okayy?

just thought i should be completely honest with my thoughts.

heh heh.

in short,
he's a pretty nice old man..

:)

happy twenTEEN me!

happy birthday to me.
happy birthday to me.
happy birthday daniel looooooo.
happy birthday to me.

heh heh.

so i am now twenty twenteen.
i am still a happy boy as before.

only difference.
i have more things on my mind than ever.
seriously,
school is enough to drain me.
but i will still be happy with the multiple blessings i've been blessed with.

the past couple of months have been very intense
and that was when i was 19.

i am twenty now.
i need to have a more focused direction in life.
perspecitive needs to change.

i dont need a man to make me happy.
i just want to be happy on my own with the people i have around me.

thank you to everyone who have been a part of my life for the past 19 years.
you have made me a stronger person in ways you never thought about.

thank you.

scottish travis.

travis.

hmm.

i dont know what to say bout them, really.

except that they are super duper ultra nice people.

one of the nicest established celebrities i have ever met so far in my past almost six years of stalking celebrities.

seriouslyy.

they are just so nice that i'm sure every single person who have met them would agree with me and go on singing praises about them.

come to think of it,

they are pretty huge in the UK and they have no evidence of being proud or stuck up at all.

stacie orrico should PLEASE learn something from these scottish lads..

haha.

and this is travis.

lead vocalist,
fran healyy.

bassist,
dougie paynee.

lead guitarist,
andy dunlopp.

and percussionist,
neil primrosee.

crowned kinggg.

crowned king returned for the third time in three years.

and of course,

we need updated pictures.

in short,

shaun still looks hot,

if not, hotter.

and rugen became better looking.

and chris became more of a drunkard than anything else in the whole entire universe.

jonny and admmm.. hmmm...

why dont you judge for yourself?

hahaa.

shaun 'hotness' frank.

guitarist rugen lewis.
drunkard chris lambert.

bassist adam brown.
last but not least,
web guy and trombone player,
jonny biggs..

ppanic at the discoooo.

yes, we did indeed got a panic attack when the boys of panic at the disco touched down from kuala lumpur.
it was a whole scene of madness with over 30 thousand fans gathered to welcome them.

of course,
i am bullshitting.

haha.

but the airport was madness when they arrived.
lots of pushing and lots of 'brendon!', 'ryan!' screams from those fans.
sometimes,
you just wish they can do this in a more orderly manner and be nice and civilised fans.
anyways,
we do have our moment of shamefulness as well...
heh heh.

'nuff said!
here are the snaps..
haha.

first up,
manfred's favourite member of panic,
urie.
brendon urie.
and this is my favourite.
he looks so good and flawless.
and he is soooo soft spoken.
and did i mention he looks like a little baby boy tucked in his dad's old clothes?
ryan rossssssss..
pretty odd one out in the band,
drummer spencer smith.
i had a hard time finding who the last member was in the band and i realised this pretty good looking guy is in the band as well..
and this is bassist jon walkerr..

i think i am getting better and better at this!
dont you love my panic at the disco's entry intro?

HAHA!

dearestt? dearest.

yes dearest is the name of the band who performed on day one of singfest.

it's quite funny how some bands can come up with such funny names.

heh heh.

we got the chance to meet half of the band and they are quite nice actually.

nothing else to comment much about them cause..

i seriously have no idea who they were,

and even right now,

i still dont know who they are.

haha.

here are the two members of canada-export, dearest..

lead vocals, guitarist..

andre palmieri

and this is guitrist,

he looked kinda nice from far but upclose,

he looks kinda freakyy.

=X